To Pao Pao

Waiting for my flight at LCCT
Basically I have another 4 hours to go
Thanks to Mr Lim who decided to get the earliest flight coz it's cheaper
So we have 6 hours to burn at LCCT

Oh well I'm not really complaining coz I can use the time to just walk around
Chill
Read blogs and even write a post :) How brilliant is that?

So I was just looking at ppl's blog and can't help thinking how I've nvr given much thought about my life until my marriage
I guess before this I just choose to go with the flow
Do what everyone else is doing (well not exactly everyone but.. More like what all the old ppl would expect me to do)
Graduate, work, get married, give birth and spend the next 20years or so raising kids then retire and sign myself up for an old folks' home ( ok the last part I was just being sarcastic)

So basically I was living my life according to a typical template
But after my wedding and all... It suddenly hits me that I haven't really given much thought
about my life
And if I go on like that.. I might regret for taking life so lightly

So after the wedding and all I've been having some kinda struggle going on in me
They called it the post marriage syndrome
But I think it's more like suddenly I realized I should given life more thought
Or maybe I should do more unconventional things during my 20s or 30s
And before the lil one comes into picture

Maybe some may think I'm being a rebellious wife, a typical 21st century lady
Who wants it all.. But not kids
I'd rather see it as.. Wanting to live a life that is fruitful and which I will not regret in my later years

And so this got me thinking
What then should I do?
Should I continue to go to work 8-5pm everyday and wait for time to pass
Or should I go and do something different?
Something I would love to before I couldn't

I know Hern has his mind set on his work and all
And I'm glad he is kinda alright with my idea of no kids yet and reaching out to see what I can offer
But then again.. I wouldn't know how much he is ok with it until it happens right?

But at least I got a yellow light :)
So now it's my turn to take the step.. Out of my comfort zone into a world which I wanted to explore long ago but never have the courage to or simply coz the timin isn't right yet.

So it's time to venture out of my comfort zone
Abut dont get me wrong... I will not neglect my duties as a wife
It's just that.. I'm gonna be Pao and also Mrs Lim